i wanna stay by your side forever :]

2009-11-30T23:20:00.000-08:00

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never say goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Eveyday i sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For i am here with you
Though you're far away
I'm still here to stay

You are not alone
i am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You are not alone

Alone, alone
Why, alone

Just the other night
i thought i hear you cry
Asking me to come
and hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens i will bear
But first i need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday i sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
For i am here with you
Though you're far apart
I'm still here to stay

For you are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You are not alone

Whisper three words
And i'll come running
And i, girl you know that i'll be there
i'll be there

You are not alone
I am here with you
Though you're far apart
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
(you are not alone)
For i am here with you
(i am here with you)
Though you're far away
(Though you're far away)
(You and me)
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
Not alone, Oh
(Alone)
You are not alone
You are not alone
Say it again
You are not alone
You are not alone
Not alone
Not alone
If you reach out for me, girl
In the morning
In the evening
Not alone
Not alone
You and me
Not alone, Oh
Together
Together

2009-11-27T15:17:00.000-08:00

today is the 6th day since deardear left...
feeling kinda wierd...
i feel vvv bored...
listless... i dun like it at all..
thnx to vanessa bestie this few days..
just having some small chat ya..
but i really need deardear back with me by my side..
i miss you loads.. darling..

2009-11-24T07:31:00.002-08:00

life feels so wierd without you...
cant wait to c u back in singapore..
i love you loads:DD

2009-10-13T19:17:00.000-07:00

'O' LVLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-01T19:58:00.000-07:00

Dear blog,

this few days, she finally gave me her all.. i feel very happy..
very happy.. i feel that there is need not to worry about my prb..
i lyk the way we are right now.. i tried to tell her abt my prb.. bt seeing how happy is she right now i did not bear to say it out.. i did not mean to hode from her.. i just dun wan her to blame herself.. hahas.
but.. everything was fine until yesterday night..
everything went wrong..
it seems to be a nightmare.. and it last till this morning...
everyting was my fault...
its all my fault.. im really sorry..
i couldnt sleep.. i tried calling her many times..
i message her many times..
at 12.. i cycle to her house.. i feel really bad..
and needed to c her..
after that i cycle to simei.. loyang point.. tampines mart.. tampines stadium.. her new house.. giant.. elias.. dte.. park.. whitesand..
i tried to stop tinking of it.. and punish myself...
i couldnt jus stop tinking.. kept looking at my fone hoping she would reply..
cycle from 12am to 5am then i go home..
sit on my bed waiting for her msg..
she finally msg.. bt it broke my heart...
bt i cant blame her.. bcos is i who break her heart first..
i really need her.. i cant lose her.. i regret and hate myslef alot...
from now on.. i will make my presence unnoticable..
in fact.. im fated to do everything on my own...
im not really much important to anyone..
no one ever miss me..
everyone wants to escape from me..
im already happy that she did not break with me..
i will never repeat the same mistake again..
be happy my dear..
i will never leave you, sebrina..
whether she still believes me or not..
my love for you will never change..
and i will keep all my promises...
Now is 11.18 am.. im very tired le..
yesterday jog swim bring her home and cycle..
did not sleep at all.. should go catch some..
though i cant sleep now..
my heart is really aching and tired..
having fever..hais...

2009-09-26T19:06:00.000-07:00

Dear blog,
went for my checkup today..
got a negative report from the doctor..
reason for dry skin.. headache..
and lost of vision awhile is due to my heart failing..
i need immediate operation.. if gets worse..
doc: Good morning.. where's daddy and mummy??
boy: busy(faint smile)
doc: ready for your checkup.. it will be x-ray and ecg check today..
{After the checkup}
doc: omy, what have you been doing Theophilus.. lately.. u got to be honest for me to diagnoise the right thing... ur x-ray and the ecg checkup is not showing good results.. the ecg shows a unstable heartbeat..
boy: er.. i stay up late.. studying for my exams..
doc: how much sleep did you get..?
boy: honestly.. 1-2 hrs a day..
doc: okay.. any other reason that you are not saying out..
boy: nope..
doc: in that case you have to take good care of yourself.. your condition now is really bad.. realise that the pain you having now is very sharp.. and frequent.. you really got to take care of yourself.. the chip in your left chest has penetrate deeper.. an immediate operation is needed actually.. but lets c how u doing in your next appointment. let ur dad and mum know.. drink more water and i prescribe you with the same medicine again. take it when needed.. Its also best that you have someone with you when you are out.. your body is fragile..
boy: okay(weak smile)
doc: go to counter 21 for your medicine and counter 27 for payment. take care bye.
boy: bye

im really scared... i have no one to confide to..
i wanted to tell someone but i couldn't..
i did not want to hide from her.. or to those who care for me...
i dont want you to worry for me..
reason why i did not want sebrina to know is because she will tink that its all her fault..
i dun wan her to tink dat way..
i feel veryfrighten in me...
my fear is getting over me..
what should i do..
my heart is getting tired each day..
i just want to put a strong front..
so that others wont worry for me..

Days passed so quickly.. i miss you each time..

2009-09-25T07:43:00.000-07:00

i really just feel very useless..
i just cant do anything to make you happy..
it hurts alot..
sorry darling...
its always my fault...
im really sorry..
i love you loads..
dear.. i really wish time can just stop at the happy moments with you..
i miss you so much each time..
i hate myself ..
i feel so tired...
i feel so depressed..
i want you to be happy..

Tiny bits of flicking lights in total darkness

2009-09-21T17:42:00.000-07:00

Dear blog,

Frustrated!!!!
Im just so naive..
im just so fucking naive...
What can i say...
what i did for others is to make sure they are safe..
people around mi are safe...
and what did i get back in return...
Well... i dun wish to say anymore le...
my heart has already been shattered into many pieces...
from today onwards..
im no longer who am i anymore...
the usual theophilus will never be seen by anyone in this worl again..
anyway.. everyone hates him too...
im just so stupid from the start..
haisss.....................
well.. from my blog.. like what 've been saying..
im not the guy anyone pay attention to..
no one reads my blog.. no one wants to understand me..
many just keep saying they care but i just cant feel it..
its all just BULLSHIT!!
well.. im closing up the blog..
as you can see no one reads it..
i shall use it to write how i feel..
i know.. she has my password..
if she ever cares which i believe she does..
she will log in to see why i have lock it..
i believe she will...
From now on i will be a silent boy again..
i will never want to care about others problems.
unless someone can come show mi how to show love and care again..
i've a very different thinking from everyone..
i know.. but why others want me to accept them who they are..
but why not the other way..
i really just want to disappear from this world..
but i kpt my promise to her.. and i will leave up to it..
really hope someone will understand me and be there for me.
i really love you darling..
i cry for you everytime you are sad..
i really wont leave you..
i will keep all my promises..
if you really need me..
i will always be there for you..
but i just be different..
hope you will be there to pull me up agn..
i really feel like crying out now..
wo hen ai ni laopo!!
i will pray for you every night to be happy and strong..

i will do anything for you..
i will never ever leave you darling..
i will keep my promises..
i love you...
im really sorry..

2009-09-20T20:37:00.000-07:00

none of this is your fault.
its just i don't understand you,
i can't and i wont.

2009-08-27T02:55:00.000-07:00

2 months to 'o' levels...
im so stressed up..
everything is just driving me crazy...
i really need to shout out..
i've got alot to catch up...
if results are really the source to prove that im really working..
then so be it.. i give it to you..
i show it to you..
im really tired of always arguing with you all...
as for the rest..
i really duno what i can do to appease you all...
im really tired..
i just hope you all understand me one day...
really.. i mean it...
i duno what more you all want from me..
when im pissed.. you all are not happy...
when im emo.. you disturb me even more..
when i keep quiet.. you all say i show attitude...
just what you all want..
do you all really want to drive me to my grave..
i really duno what more i can do..
but.. among all.. there is still one girl standing up for me..
im glad that she's always there for me..
she gave me back my hope...
she brought my soul back...
she brought me back up to my feet..
she gave me everything i needed..
im really touch..
and because of her.. im still standing..
and i will stand up strong to get over what im in now...
she's just like the light that im seeing at the bottom of the pitch dark well..
she light up my life..
i wont disappoint you..
i wont take you for granted..
i wont break my promises made to you..
i meant everything i say..
trust me..
you will always be my one and only..
no one can replace you..
i love you.. ♥Sebrina kwa yan teng!!
always...
im looking forward to chalet..

106days and counting..
27 days and counting..
9yrs 9mths 17days to 13th May 2018

2009-08-14T04:46:00.000-07:00

im sorry.. really sorry...
im pissing off latley.. im getting too work out..
im just to stressed out.. im really tiring my body out..
what do i got to say.. i just hope someone can really understand me..
today it just show its 1st sign of me unable to controll myself..
i shouted at jerwin at the canteen.. sebrina friends were there too..
anymore words from him i would have beat him up..
i losing control of myself..
im really freaking out...
im sorry...

2009-08-10T08:14:00.000-07:00

decide to start blogging again..
LOLS!! jiayous for prelim and 'o' lvls.

89days and counting..

2009-07-25T16:57:00.000-07:00

Not blogging anymore..

2009-07-21T07:28:00.000-07:00

tomorrow 'o'lvl mother tongue listening compre..
Gd luck to everyone.. all the best!!!:DDDD

69days and counting...

2009-07-17T09:30:00.000-07:00

i believe you ah.. darling..
wo bu hui fang qi de.. i promise..
i just need you to believe in me jiu gou le..
laopo.. xiexie ni gang cai an wei wo..
wo men yong yuan hui zai yi qi..
wo bu hui rang ni shi wang de..
ni ye shi o..
wo hen ai ni laopo..
Super Duper Love ya.:DDD
Muaccks!!x333

2009-07-14T06:43:00.000-07:00

Happy 2nd mth anniversary!!:DD

62 days and counting...

2009-07-12T08:35:00.001-07:00

Study at elias with laopo, siying mei and yushan.
Was kind of tired though..
study geography and f&n..
btw 2 more days to some occasion very important to me. Hahas!!:DDD
i love you lots darling.. always!!=]

60days and counting...

2009-07-11T07:54:00.000-07:00

Today out studying with darling at loyang point:DDD

59days and counting...

2009-07-10T07:13:00.000-07:00

Happy spending the time with darling the past few days^^
O.. and finally i see a good in my cls test...
omy is lyk after so long... hahas.
Meet darl after school.
Study together.[=
Will not be blogging often ya.

58 days and counting..

2009-07-05T19:20:00.000-07:00

MIA the last few days. My apologys.

Yesterday

Went to loyang point to study with darling:D

All i have to say yesterday is millions of sorry.

And im not SPENCER. Hahas

Believe me ya. i wont break any of my promises.

3rd July

PRCS 10th anniversary gala dinner!!

Went to darl's house.

Then meet the rest outside school at 4.30.

The guys.. all look damn shuai..

The girls... all look damn gorgeous..

Table 29: Me, sebrina, siying, marilyn, see hwee and wilson.

Table 31: Brendon, dennis, edmund, elton and kevin.

Had a fun time over there la.^^

Me, Sebrina & Stephanie!!:DDD

Group photo!!=]

I had a wonderful night with you.=} i will always remember...

53 days and counting...

2009-07-02T07:15:00.001-07:00

F&N 'o' lvl practical exam..
Shld be okay bah.. cook for 2 damn hours..
but the cupcake.. ruin... so plain..
very happy that darl wait for me outside school.^^
Love you!!=}
Very tired siol...
tomorrow nd not go school. Yeayea!!:DDD
In the sfternoon attending sch 1oth anniversary.=]
Feel so excited!!

50days and counting...

2009-06-29T03:59:00.000-07:00

i really wish i could share your pain..
really.. i just feel so miserable.. seeing u in pain..
and yet i could do nth much too ease it..
take good care and rest early kies..

2009-06-28T07:07:00.000-07:00

Meet darling at 12pm.
Then went to white sands meet yushan.
Then off we went to elias do homework.
Siying and vanessa joins us later on.
Rain heavily and we moved to mac..
had some fries.. and then continue drawing darl's lit hw.
We left around 6 plus.. went to whitesands,, pei darl buy her dinner..
then send her hm:DDD
Went home after that.
Today had a fine day.
Its nice chatting with darl, yu shan, siying and vanessa.
Aiya in short.. i had a nice chat la.. LOLS!!!
thats all for today.^^
Tomorrow school reopen le.
Got to meet darl in the morning so..
Byebye!!:}
Nites!=]

46 days.. and counting..

2009-06-26T20:01:00.000-07:00

Yesterday

Duno what is this called!!-.-'' LOLS!!
Yes!! Finally win the 'Money cheating toy grabbing machine!!' Elton.. Wahahahaha!!
Ate at pizza hut. Baked pasta...
Hello kitty sleeping in my hoody:DDDD

Yesterday had a fun time alone with laopo.^^

Really happy!!=] Hahas.=}

Love ya LAOPO!!

2009-06-24T04:27:00.000-07:00

Pei laopo the whole afternoon.
Im vvv happy being by ur side.[=
Really.. i mean it.. hahas^^
At times im quiet.. its not bcos of you.. really.
De problem is just with me.. so ya.. bear with it ya.
I will soon get over that problem which i dun lyk.
So ya just staing it here so that you wont think other wise.
You are a really good.. wonderful girlfriend. No.. Laopo.. hehes..
Being cheecky here..-.-''
I wont break all the promises i made to you ya.
Smile always k. Laopo:DDD
Take care of yourself always kay..
im always worry about you.
So dun tink too much kay.. its really not about you.(:
iloveyou!!=}

2009-06-23T07:01:00.000-07:00

Yest had fever!! But in the morning i felt btr.

Saw darl's msg.. her eyes hurt.. Rush dwn to pei her whole day..

Morning 9 to evening 6.

Help her put eye drop.[=

Ltr play com and go out eat lunch at mac with darl.{=

After that went compassvale..

mi n darl bought a hanphone sock there. VVV cute!!

Went to beach ltr on.. and then send darl home:DDD

Had a happy time with darl today.^^

Im so happy!!:)

Love you so much! Wahahaha!!!-.-''

Panda so cute!!>.<

2009-06-22T06:04:00.000-07:00

i feel very happy when im with darl.
Thank you for finding time for me.
i love you lots always.
It will always remain the same..
in fact it will grow even more.
Wo Ai Ni Laopo!!:D

2009-06-21T21:17:00.000-07:00

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missing you crazy
How do you how do you sleep
I found a letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you how do you sleep how do you sleep

Tried my best at moving on have yet to find a girl like you
See things now I didn't before now I'm wishing I had more time with you
How do you stay awake knowing all I do is think of you
All the things we thought about that never will happen again
If I could just see you

If I had my way I'll come and getcha girl
In your favorite car with the missing top
Around my way where we used to park
And did all those things to steal your heart

It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missing you crazy
How do you how do you sleep
I found a letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you how do you sleep

It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missing you crazy
How do you how do you sleep
I found a letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
damn those sweet memories
How do you how do you sleep how do you sleep

Baby all that I hear from my friends again
And again and again (compliments 'bout you)
They say we saw your girl at the game
And damn we gotta say a big mistake by you
Not only does your body bang but I miss the conversation too
Tell me that you gettin' no sleep, can't think
Can't eat until I come see you

If I had my way I'll come and getcha girl
In your favorite car with the missing top
Around my way where we used to park
And did all those things to steal your heart

It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missing you crazy
How do you how do you sleep
I found a letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you how do you sleep how do you sleep

Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh

It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missing you crazy
How do you how do you sleep
I found a letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you how do you sleep

It's been about a year now
Ain't seen or heard from you
I been missing you crazy
How do you how do you sleep
I found a letter you wrote me
It still smells just like you
Damn those sweet memories
How do you how do you sleep

Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

2009-06-20T06:31:00.000-07:00

My eyes are to watch over you.
My ears are to listen to your problems.
My nose is to smell you and your wonderful cooking.
My mouth is to kiss you, sing praises of you.
My hands are to carry you and help you up when you fall.
My shoulders are for you to cry on.
My legs are to run to you when you call for me.
My body is to hug you and give you warm.
My brain is to think of you and to solve your problem.
My heart is to show you my love and for you to feel my love.
O ya.. and for me to feel your love.
Tay Theophilus is always there for you.
To make promises which gives you happiness and love always.
He will take good care of you from now on.
I promise you, your darkest moment of your life ends from now on.
You lead a life full of smile and joy.
Bright days are up ahead.
Smile always ya.[=
I love you always.. darling!!x333

~Theophilus~

2009-06-15T04:40:00.000-07:00

Yesterday

Arrrrrrrgggghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! Dunmo wad to eat....

Yeaaaaa!!!!!!! Choose le.... Hehes:D

singapore river!!!

Shuai ge!!:DDD Lols!!

Guai kia & sebrina!!

Pai kia & sebrina!!

Innocent couple.. Love lots!!

Nite viewing!!

Fullerton Hotel!! Beautiful!! Nicenice!!

C..... Bridge. Nice lightings ya..

LAOPO at the bridge!!!!x333

Miiiiiiiii!!!! at the bridge. Wahahaha!!!!

Laopo love Laogong~Laogong love Laopo. Wee~~

Presents i gave.. nt including card and rose!!:D: LOLS!!

Present from Darlinggggg:DDDDD i love it!!

Yo!!! Today was a tiring day.. Went out frm 10am to 12pm..
But was fun ya.. Had 2 event going on.. Mi and laopo 1mth anniversary & Dennis b'dae.
Once agn.. Happy 1st mth anniversary!! Laopo!!:DDD
And happy 17th birthday dennis!!:DD
The above pictures are photos of mi and darling.. :D
Well did not have photo of the whole group.. the rest. D:
went pick up darl and meet the rest at ws..
Train off to ms..
cut cake at esplanade rooftop and watch movie ltr on..
after movie part with the group and hav er ren shi jie with darling!!
Brought her to clark quay to eat at Manchester united cafe/pub..
Had chicken chop and fillet o fish..
After that walk along singapore river and took many photos together.^^
Walk pass fullerton hotel and cross the duno wad bride.. So beautiful and romantic!!
We walk back to esplanade and then marina sq..
darl bring me go see OUR wedding cake.. LOLS!!!
After that both of us tired le.. send darl home before going home..
Im vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv happy today!!!
Darl.. i meant every word i wrotein there.. trust mi ya.
I love you laopo!! Wo ai ni!! MUax!!x333

Today
Was nt feeling so well..
Bt still pei darling at LP..
went home abt 4 plus..
Currently slacking at home!!
i miss yesterday.. Hahas!!:D

2009-06-11T08:08:00.000-07:00

im feeling vv exhausted..
bt i just cant sleep well...

2009-06-10T07:16:00.000-07:00

meet darl at 10am..
later we went elias find siying,clayton,yushan & marilyn
after that went whitesands... and then off to dte..
meet yangwui,trisha and 1 mre guy...
after that went darl home do hw...
before sending darl for piano..
and off i went hm le..
nw currently doing nothing...
just resting..
i feel so empty..

2009-06-09T02:52:00.000-07:00

Today.. i feel so empty..
morning wake up.. use com..
went for chemistry remedial frm 2 to 5..
after that went home le.. sians...
currently staring into blank space..
hais... So emty and boring..

2009-06-08T07:25:00.001-07:00

i love darling so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Muax!!!!!!!!x3333333333333333

2009-06-05T07:55:00.000-07:00

darl.. i never blame you at all...
i nt upset or angry with you..
i just feel so empty...
when you are down..
i cant do much to cheer you up..
i just feel so helpless..
and worse is that you have to rely on another guy to cheer you up..
im just so useless...
what kind of boyfriend am i...
thnx the guy for cheering you up..
i just feel that you have to care about yourself..
dont hide your true feelings..
hurt yourself emotionally..
and forget the past, break the wall..
it hurts to see you do all these to yourself..
well its over.. today was a good day..
i want it to carry on like this..
both of us are happy...
from now on i wont let any of this to happen again..
we break the wall together..
when you need me.. i be there for you..
just remember.. u can count on me for life ya..
Love you lots and lots!!
Btw.. thnx for the bear.. lets take care of Ember together ya.
LOVE YOU!!!x333

2009-06-04T06:06:00.000-07:00

im happy.

2009-06-02T06:31:00.000-07:00

yesterday took mt o lvl ppr le..
paper was fine ya. but still have to retake it again.
today have normal lessons. but it seems very lifeless compare to normal school days.
perhaps, in holiday mood bah.
Was worry for darl the whole day. She not feeling well, gastric.
Sorry ya.. i lost me cool then.
i hope you can take care of yourself too. Don't neglect your health.
Well im also not angry or upset with you ya. And you need not apologise cause you did nothing wrong. Hahas!!:)
Have a good rest tonight kays. tomorrow is a new day le.
Stay positive and happy always. Smile!! :D
ILOVEYOU!! DARLING!!
Goodnites!! Muax!! x33
~takecares!!~

Theophilus.

2009-05-31T07:10:00.000-07:00

Was too tired to post the last few days.
Fri went out with darl,seehwee,wilson,dennis,stephanie,elton & brendon.
We went to the flyers.. lols.. darl vvv scared of height.. there not stand up in the flyer.. took group photos and others..
after that went to marina sq play pool..
i played like shit siol... cant seem to concentrate..
sent back darl.. and reach hm at 12..

Sat woke up late cause need go aunt hse.. and have to cancel my appointment to gym with edmund.. sorry bro.D: at aunt hse.. i did nothing.. den cousin and siblings wan mi go swim.. i dun wan bt they force mi.. so bo bian..
after awhile go sun tanning and guess wad.. i kana sun burn..
After that went pei darl from 6 to 11..

Today go out study at burger king with darl..
Do most of the mt practice ppr..
After that went to the beach for a walk before gg darl hse pei her..
She nt feeling so well.. wanted cook for her..
bt she insist she cook.. well nxt tym bah.. hahas..
Darls.. cooking vvv yummy siol.. Hehes!!:D
Finish all of them up.. Yum! Yum!
After dinner clean up and pei her tok..
Left at 9. Now currently chatting with her on msn ya.^^
Im so happy when im with her. Hahas!!:)

iloveyou!
ineedyou!
imissyou!
iwantyou!

2009-05-28T04:17:00.000-07:00

SORRRRRRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!! :(

2009-05-26T15:05:00.000-07:00

F&N!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So stress.... must hand up soon le..
Doing alittle... still have lots to go...
Sianzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....

2009-05-24T05:49:00.000-07:00

Woke up 9 in the morning though i did not really sleep ya.
Just resting on bed ya...
Yest send darl home after her tution at 9..
pei her until 10.30..
den go hm le..
reach hm 12 plus.. call darl talk..
chat until 2am den ask darl go slp...
LOLS!! someone say not tired in the end woke up at 2pm nxt day.. Hahas!!
12 have haircut appointment...
after that dad come fetch me go aunt house..
so boring lor..
only think of her at aunt hse lor....
5 plus we came back le.. dad drop me at ws... i go brendon hse collect boots...
reach hm, eat.. sleep in bathe tub and now chatting to darl on msn.=]
Tomorrow have match against sec 3!!^^
Ultimately i wan to post that...
I MISS YOU LOTS & LOTS!! DARLING!!!
CYA TOMORROW!! Hehe..:D

2009-05-23T01:54:00.000-07:00

:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
So BOORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!
Just freaking me out!!!
Arrrrrggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!
Tomorrow maybe going swim with family.
Hais..................................
Tonight Man U play with Hull City.
4 more days to the big showdown.
Man Utd v FC Barcelona.

2009-05-22T06:38:00.000-07:00

yesterday was too tired to blog..
yesterday have soccer match..
sec4 v sec5.. final score sec5 beat sec4, 5-2..
today after school pei darl go eat at LP...
after that slack at canteen while she has band..
after her band walk her home..
reach home around 8 plus...
eat.. bathe and currently using com..
i feel happy when im with darl.^^
wish that time could just freeze ya.. Hahahas!!
Thats all.. Byes!!:D

2009-05-20T06:39:00.000-07:00

Today is a long and tiring day..
school end at 4 and PE was the last lesson of the day...
played soccer... drain or my energy...
tmr have soccer match.. sec 4 v sec 5 sill be another tiring day ya..
bt darl say will find me after the match.. happyhappy!!
after school went to fish and co with darl...
i feel so relax when she's by my side.^^
Wish she be my side every minute!! Yea!! that's gd man..
send darl to loyang pt for piano.. den go home le..
F&N: 25.5/100
Lit: 48/100
MT: 44/100
Chem: forgot but fail...
Well i feel so stress upon seeing the result i getting.. got to start le..
I gonna chiong le..

2009-05-19T06:44:00.000-07:00

English : 60/110
Maths : 66/180
Physics: forget but fail...
Combine Humans: 40/100 (SS: 25/50 Geo: 15/50)

After school pei meet darl go eat.. See hwee, dennis, wilson, joey and kevin came along..
Eat at burger king.. 4pm, darl have band.. so wait for her at canteen... Buttttt... she ask me come find her outside band room.. I know.. she miss me.. wahahaha.. wan me pei her.. So sat there and watch her file her band thingy:D And guess what her band juniors and friends keep coming out see.. Oohoo.. at least i bcome more famous le.. hahas.^^ after she file finish.. i went down canteen .. took a nap.. woke up by mustaqim whose playing the piano.. Me, him and nalfa walk round the school.. went to band room in the end... Lols.. So ps... darl oso throw her shoe at me.. hehe.. 6pm darl finish band pei her seat under blk talk.. I love the time spent with her.. i feel so happy ya!! Darl loveyou lots!! After darl went home.. meet mum at ws.. buy food and cake..
Today is kors birthday.. Happy 19th Birthday KOR!!!! Wish u all the best in whatever u wish for!!^^ and guess what i hav e to finish the food... Now im so fulllllllllllllll....D:
Currently chatting to darl=] cant wait to pei darl tmr. hahas. thats all. Nites!!

2009-05-17T20:06:00.001-07:00

Im feeling much better le.^^
Thnx to those who showed great concern ya. :D
Especially darl.. who pei me talk over the phone, yest night. x33
Currently slacking at home..
Temperature is at 37.4..
So i decide that i shall make my way to the gym today in the afternoon.
Keep myself fit and healthy.
And hope today will past quickly.^^
Cause tomorrow i can see darl le!!>.<
wahahahahaha!!! -.-''

2009-05-16T23:20:00.000-07:00

FEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
woke up feeling so heavy and hot...
39.8 degree celcius
38.2 degree celcius
tried to chiong f&n....
having bad headache...
go rest for the day...

2009-05-16T21:15:00.000-07:00

Yesterday

Have science MCQ and F&N exam...

After science mcq exam.. thought could see darl at canteen..

but.. hahas... she went off le.. But its okay la..^^

F&N exam.. cant concentrate.. just waiting for time to past...

Impatient ya.. cant wait to see darl...

Rush home after exam.. get change.. and rush to white sands meet darl:D

we went to marina square!!

lols.. she nvr tell me earlier.. Lols.. i wear too little..

marina square there vv little ppl but vvv cold..

we catch a movie together ya.. Angels and Demons..

The movie was nice ya... cause darl say its nice..-.-''hahahas!!
LOLS!! i was suppose to kep darl warm but instead she kept me warm..Zzzzz...
i keep trembling... omg i so pai sei lor...
After the movie we went subway eat.. we sat outside as its raining and its freaking colllddd in air conditioning area...
We sat there and talk till brendon called..
we make our way to bugis to meet brendon and elton...
went to the new shopping centre at bugis.. duno wad its called...
ate at mahattan fish market... me and darl shared as both of us were quite full ya..
after eating play arcade and walk round the shopping centre.. nth much la..
we trained back to white sands to play arcade...
after that time go home le.. i send darl home... i love her so much..
reach home around 10.30...
bathe finish... lie on bed.. resting...
sleep at 6am...

Today
Woke up at 11 plus...
having a bad headache...
duno want go clark quay later...
just finish carrying weight...
lols.. alittle craz i know...
if better.. later will go...
see man u win today...
k la.. thats all for now..
Love you lots and lots.. darl..
any stalkers.. buzz off.. she's mine..
wahahahaha!!! LOVE YA!!
Muax!! =x

After all i did went out today. met brendon at 4pm. We went to marina square play pool. Play until 6.10 before going yoshinoya eat. Ate finish around 6.50. made our way to the mrt station. saw elton, edmund, see hwee, jessie and denise there. i kana beaten by see hwee. VVV pain siol.. me and brend den went to devils cafepub at clark quay watch man u play... Ooo.. the atmosphere was so coooolllll!! manage to find a good spot... ordered 2 bottles of tiger beer, 2 big cups of coke and chicken wings.. damn ex siol... all together $36. The game ended with a draw.. but man u won the title... hahas.. actually suppose to be man u win 1-0 de.. ref kayu... Kudos to Man Utd ya.. for retaining title!!^^ But i wasnt really interested in the game.. im always looking at my phone... i miss her... she msg me sae she fever.. if i ever can i will go find her lor.. ^^ talk to her over the phone for awhile ya.. im glad she's okay now. k la.. shall post pics now.

Playing poooooooooooooooooooooooollllllll!!~

At devils cafe pub!!!!!!!!!!!

Night lighting!!! VVV nicccccceeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!That's all for today.. Byes!!!!!!

2009-05-14T06:45:00.000-07:00

IM JUMPING ALL OVER THE MOON!!
Wahaha!! today is the happiest day of my life ya...
im so happy... she finally accepted me..
omy i cant believe it.. i forgot to ask her to pinch me just now..
to see if im dreaming.. LOLS!!
And its also Manchester United beat Wigan 2-1 to close down on being epl champs..
Omy double joyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!
But nw im just too happy to study f&n.. lols.-.-''
aiya.. im too happy to write in detail la..
thats all.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS!!!!
Byes!!

2009-05-13T06:24:00.000-07:00

OOhoo... today's english ppr was okok la...
i guess.. i hope that this is the only ppr i pass.. lols...
after exam went home change,eat before meeting sebrina, siying and their frienz jordan and yushan...
wait for them to eat finish then off we went to elias cc study..
though its only them studying.. me always slacking away..
sebrina and siying study until 1plus before we go to tm,cs & t1...
sebrina and siying forever still the same... so much to talk about.. LOLS!!
omg..and i saw this man u bag pack at football fan shop, T1.. so gonna buy it..
walk around cs tm t1 before going back to ws...
went to lib slack before gg to mac..
sebrina and siying studied again..
treat seb to icecream!!^^
after that siying went home.. i send sebrina to elias for her piano lesson.
after that went eat dinner alone at ws... T.T
so pathetic ya... hahas..
Tomorrow physic exam.. shld be ok bah..
Try my best ehs!!
Gd luck everyone!!
Byes!!

2009-05-12T04:07:00.000-07:00

today had chem exam..
its really a goner paper...
morning meet brendon at dte at 10..
ate breakfast before going to school..
after exam.. went find sebrina and siying at ws mac...
they just keep talking and talking...
one word to describe them..'humourous'
4pm sebrina need to go le.. so pei her until tamp mrt station then go home le..
im vvv happy today ya.. lols...
tomorrow maybe meeting them again...
that's all for today..
gotta study now.. T.T
byes!

2009-05-11T03:02:00.000-07:00

its the 7th night without sleep...
today gona be the 8th.. O.. wo de tian ah...
today came out of the room at 6am.. mum ask me why dun wan sleep when can sleep..
well.. i just walk away.. did not say a thing at all..
use the com for 15min and then went carry weight...
i carry till 8, had my breakfast, bathe and off i go to school..
reach school at 9.15.. lessons starts at 9am-.-'' im late..
chem lesson finish at 12.20.. make my way to dte mac find wilson, see hwee, kevin jessie and joey. Wanted to study but i did not.. i feel very tired and having headache.. vision was also sort of blurr... even walk the time alittle unstable le..
so.. i msg sebrina.. well.. shes studying at elias cc..
so did not disturb her then.. and i went to sleep...
went home at 4 plus.. ate lunch and dinner at 1 go..
now.. feeling listless.. i can feel my heavy eye bag..
later sure have to study de.. hais..
waiting for her msg... im yearning for it.. hahas!!:D

2009-05-10T06:56:00.000-07:00

Totally exhausted..... D:
hais.. its the night again.. gona spent the quite night alone again..
how i wish she's there every night..
it would be great...
she's just so sweet..

2009-05-09T07:39:00.000-07:00

Today went dte bk study with wilson see hwee and jessie...

nothing much la.. couldnt really study much at all..

i just wanna be out of the hse.. rather then to quarrel with him again..

btw before leaving hse quarrel with him..-.-''

study till 4 plus and went to kfc to eat alone..

saw yueping and her friend pei xuan went come back...

see hwee dare me go talk to them.. so went talk to them lor..

after that me jess wilson and see hwee went to pasir ris park...

see sunset... sian... hahass... but today i make my first 2 art pieces...

I love sebrina!!
Me, wilson, see hwee & jess were here!!

Wahahahaha!!!!!! Damn i perspire so much as i did it.. Lolsss...

Me hard work!!

And sunset was so nice ya...

So niccccceeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!

Sunset we make a move le...

follow see hwee go buy dinner at subway..

and sebrina message me.. Wee.. So happy!!^^

its like.. FINALLY.... hahas..

Message her as i go home.. Thank yous!! :D

Currently vvv tired.. i cant slp.. tink today will be the 6th day bah..

im extremely exhausted...

2009-05-08T08:23:00.000-07:00

Finally... its the weekends...
at least have some time not looking at the books!!!!
Sians... 4 days didnt sllep le...
so tired... and i still got to see his face and attitude again...
u dun understand me at all.. dad...
try to sleep now... but just cant...
well.. just lie on the bed bah...
tomorrow will be going out with see hwee, jess and duno who else..
see who have go bah..
anyway thank you for tonight...
i felt relax for once..
thank youuu...^^
Nites everyone!!

Tomorrow:
Manchester United v Manchester City

2009-05-05T07:34:00.000-07:00

MYE social studies, maths and literature..
stress!!!!!!!
chiong maths and ss bk3 until 10.30... going sleep.. wake up at 2.30 watch soccer..
Manchester United v Arsenal
will finish at 4plus.. den finish up ss bk4 and read alittle on lit..
den go school sit exam le..
hais... tomorrow a long day... exam until 4.30.. crazy..
currently feeling vvv tired.. bt cant sleep ya...
gd luck to everyone in tomorrows exams!!
Take cares!!
Nites!!

2009-05-03T06:12:00.000-07:00

i've realise that i do not exist in anybody's world...
im just someone who attend to their needs when they needed...
im last in everyone's mind, life or what ever they called it...
parents.. all they care is studies...
siblings.. friendly to me only when they have nothing to do...
friends.. only due to common interest and out for fun...
the rest.. all the same...
Its like "WHAT THE FUCK CAN?!'' D:
im fucking pissed off with my god damn life!!
i've realised the situation and i got the gise of my life and everyone's..
im different.. and im always different..
i really cant take it anymore...
u guys... gahs... forget it!!
i just withdraw into my own world.
thats my life.. and it will always be this way..
Fated.. everything fated..

2009-05-01T20:22:00.000-07:00

Im really sorry.... i really love you so much...
i know its hard for you to accept it...
but its hard for mi to let go too...
u a nice girl..
the first i ever felt true feelings for...
its just so hard for me to let go...
really.. its just too hard..
if i ever make u mad because of this.. im sorry..
if i ever make u irritated because of this.. im sorry..
if i ever make u feel guilty because of this.. im sorry..
if i ever make u feel anything because of this.. im really sorry..
thats all i can do... giving up is impossible..
losing you its not going to happen.. though its starting too..
i dun feel im wasting time at all..
no chemistry between us.. i try make it happen..
try till my very most...
im not going to be like him to give you up..
if you wan be angry.. u tink im stalker.. go ahead..
but nth is going make me give up..
2012.. is not a joke.. a promise is a promise...
"Heres my promise made tonight. You can count on me for life"
you may continue to reject me and i continue to wait for you..
you can reject me but you cant stop me from loving you..
i can love you but you i cant force you to love me..
you are the best girl to me but i may not be the best boy to you.
i understand, but...you cant stop me from loving you..
'When nothing you do can change my mind'
i wont disturb you.. i wont stalk you..
i jus wait.. and try protect you frm far..
and try my best to win you...
You have any prbs i be your listening ears...
You may hurt me time and times again..
but i will never blame you..
i hope you understand.. its hard to give you up.. i'll be the last if i have to..
and i dun regret what i've done at all..
wont let you go ever when i catch hold of you..
im really sorry...

~Theophilus~

2009-05-01T04:28:00.000-07:00

Went study at ehub superdogs....
Me, edmund, see hwee, jessie & wilson...
initially jess and sh wanted dte burger king but place full le...
studied for 20 min and i cant take it anymore...
slack le.... listen to music while the rest studied...
felt hungry.. jess pei mi go eat...
went to mac first follow by kfc and finally we chose bk...
Hmm.. we talk our prbs as we ate...
srrrryyy... made u too emotional that you... er... well... u know...
after that jess want go to the top of the carpark...
so pei her go... the scenery up there vvv nice siol..
after that went back superdogs... dennis and stephanie came...
talk about our n lvl and the up coming o lvl..
went hm at 6.15....
currently doing nothing...
hoping she on9 again:D
byes.

it has been 9 days..

2009-04-30T06:18:00.000-07:00

Did not sleep for 2 days.... Feeling vvv tired le.

Finally today finish el and mt ppr 1 plus chem and phy practical exam...
After that went to tampines gv watch xmen origin with el, ed, brend...

The movie was okay... Hmm.. alittle boring ya...

after that went ws to meet bro and mum buy dinner...

man u beat arsenal 1-0 in champions league semi-final...

i really have no one to talk too.. hais...

currently feeling very worn out...

8days le...

2009-04-28T03:16:00.000-07:00

OMG!!!! morning go get good deed award...
Omy.. so paisei siol.... Zzzzz.....
Well who cares anyway....
Damn.. today have 2 test... ss and maths..
i totally screw the tests up...
Lols. but i dun really care....
does it matter now...
what done cant be undone...
after school went to changi general hospital...
doc still cant be precise enough...
gave me 6wks mc to excuse frm PE...
Need to have a follow up around June...
Well talking about my hands... they are aching lately...
well also had the blisters on my palm teared yesterday...
vvv pain... nw cant really write or do anything properly...
Well anyway have been planning what to do for something which is still a long way to go...
Yea.. i know im alittle crazy...
Btw i wana watch X-men origin this fri.... Who want watch... i know elton will.. hahs!!
This fri is a holiday also.. Wahaha!!!!

6days le... another 141 days... sians....

Manchester united v Arsenal
(champions league semi 1st leg)
thur 2.40pm

2009-04-27T02:56:00.000-07:00

Sians..................
So sians..................
Extremely sians.................
Super duper sians.....................
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im freaking out!!!!

2009-04-26T06:05:00.000-07:00

Yest was out for dickson's bbq birthday party...
celebrating one day in advance.. hahas.
Held loyang valley bbq pit...
Meet wilson and see hwee at tm at 6plus...
we waited for jess at ws....
and guess wad elton did not go... wtf... but understand la...
so its like im so lonely at the bbq...
just sat along the pool side to eat chicken wings and hotdogs alone...
funny part is dickson get pushed into the pool...
and omg.. he dont know how to swim.. LOL!!
jerwin oso kana pushed into the pool... his phone spoil.. sadden siol..
Worst thing is that.. the girls were playing some sort of true or dare game..
and adeline approach mi.. i gotta post number 1-5 act cute smile with her..
and the rest took pic!!!-.-''
After cutting cake went home le.. wilson walk see hwee home..
and i walk jess home... and took a slow walk back home..
reach hm abt 11.30...
today.. i study f&n... so borrriiiinnggggg.....
sian siol... tomorow have 4 test...
currently reading ppls blog ya...

And today is DICKSON'S BIRTHDAY.

Happy Birthday Dickson!!

Well kudos to Man Utd in coming frm 2-0 down to thrash Tottenham 5-2!!

Ronaldo's Header!!!
Dimitar Berbatov!!

the Red Devils are back... Wahahaha!!!

See man u oso know its your b'dae dats why its a THRASHING!!!!

k la go visit dream land le.. Nites! :D

2009-04-23T03:36:00.000-07:00

Watch knowing after school...
The movie waste money de.. lols...

Anyway man utd win portsmouth 2-0...
3pts clear liverpool with a game in hand.. hahs..
Thumbs up for the devils....^^

2009-04-20T05:24:00.000-07:00

im feeling low....
ily.. iny.. imy...
hais.................

2009-04-19T05:03:00.000-07:00

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' CrAzY
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' cRaZy
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

2009-04-18T04:36:00.000-07:00

Morning went for chemistry lesson at 9 to 11...

had lunch with edmund and elton at kfc...

after that slack the whole afternoon..

i really just sat there do nothing man... wtf..

lucky... my aunt visit me in the evening.. and guess who they brought along...

they bring my nagu to me... my dearest dog.. long time since i see him le..

i feel relief.. phew.... bt i miss my dog nana even more.. she's in heaven le...

okies.. enough of the dogs.. i felt happy... but that just last for awhile.. its always the same routine.. i start of thinking of her and continue thinking of her till the time i go to sleep... well i believe she will be able to be a band major.. i believe the teachers will make a wise decision... is at their lost if they dont.. and for that senior who did what he had done to her.. u gonna have a taste of your own medicine one day.. im sure she can make it... hmm.. dun let this make u feel upset.. its not worth okies.. cheer up ya.. sebrina!!:D Take cares.. Byes!^^

manchester united v everton fa cup semi-final tomorrow 10.30pm

2009-04-16T14:47:00.000-07:00

Yesterday
watch 17 again with elton, joanna, alycia and her boyfriend.

And manchester united beat porto 1-0 to get into semis... thanks to ronaldo 6min strike..

Well.. still the same always... hais....

Today

Shoulder is hurting me again...

Feeling terrible today.... D:

2009-04-14T15:01:00.000-07:00

Yesterday

Watch "Handsome Suit' at 4.30.

After school went straight to ehub.

Brendon was with us but did not want watch the movie.. so just left me and elton.. walk brendon to the busstop before we go to downtowneast mac cafe..

Anyway.. i think that this movie doesnt worth 6 bucks bah..

Maybe at least 4 or 5... Lols...

Today morning i did not see her ya...

Recess.. i think i did bah...

well me and elton do not really believe in fate...

Y?? Dun ask us.. we also duno..

Today is a boring day....

Had eng summary test which i think i gona fail..

Hope to see you tomorrow ya... in the canteen or somewhere in the school...

Thats all for now.. Byes!!

Today

BOOOOOOOORRRRIIIIIIINNNNNNNGGGGGGG!!!!!!!
As usual lessons were boring. I fell asleep in chemistry and maths lessons.
I do not like a Wed or a Fri. Well reason is i cant get to see her in the morning.
So started off my day feeling so dull. Worst still.. i only get to see her at the end of recess.... Its like what the hell can.. keep searching for her and i could only see her at the end. D:
After school, had TKAM at 2.30.. so did not ate my lunch and stomach was making me feel so uneasy throughout the lesson. Well TKAM wasnt so bad after all.... but still me and elton do not like it. What do you expect when an angmo is speaking.. LOLS!!
Me and elton is thinking of not attending tomorrow’s TKAM.... Maybe want watch 17 again.. Zzzzz....
It was even better after the lesson. We ended at 6 plus.... timing was right...
I saw sebrina walking out of the gate... i was able to walk her to loyang point.
While walking with her i felt the same old feelings many months ago.. when i walk her home... Well the feelings are of cause base on me only la... as for her.. i duno...
I just feel happy today... so long since i felt really happy again... Thank You sebrina! :D
After walking her, went to the beach for a quick stroll....dunno why the air seems fresh today ya.^^ Now currently at home.. doing my F&N coursework research...

Manchester United FC v Porto FC

Tomorrow morning 2.40am...

Be sure i will be awake watching!!

IM EVEN SURE NOW THAT I'll WAIT FOR YOU!! :D

2009-04-13T04:07:00.000-07:00

Boring day.... well i dislike school lots and lots...
Its only for the morning assembly, recess and her if not i cant be bother to come to school.
Today i feel a whole lot of irritated and confuse...
Well.. irritated because she just suddenly disappear out again.. no messages and calls...
It could be that i did something wrong.. but just what did i done wrong now..
Confused because i dunno what to message to her.. i just cant think of anything to message her. During recess she sat de opposite table. Still feel alittle uneasy but tried to look at her.. hoping that she turn and i could say at least a ‘hi’ to her. But the few times i look at her.. she wasnt looking at all. Perhaps when i was looking away. Im just thinking too much. Therefore, i feel even worst after recess. And i insisted not to go for TKAM workshop.. neither do i want to go home. I wanted to go to the beach or the cinema to relax myself and try to calm myself down.
So.. after school, initially wanted to go to the beach but since brendon and elton said that they want to watch movie.. off we went. We went ehub watch Fast and Furious 4.

Well the show was nice la.. nt muuch comment.. Just that the cars were nice.. the hot babes .

Lols.. joking. Wel but this time i just keep thinking of 'you' through out the whole movie.

Like what elton say.. i start the day thinking of you.. i end the day thinking of you.. Its just too deep le....

Will there be a miracle one day?? Guess i just have to wait and know the result later on. I really dun mind and hope you too. I just want to step into your life. I just want to be there for you. And i just want you to be HAPPY. Will wait for you till u accept mi at your own will....
2012? More? It definitely be more than 2012. Promise.

2009-04-12T02:37:00.000-07:00

Dammmmmnnnnn......... D:

Manchester United 2 Sunderland 1

Federico Macheda!! I love him!! x2

2009-04-11T04:16:00.000-07:00

i feel really uneasy since this morning till now..
its her in my mind..
well just keep thinking...
messages which are not irritaing to send to her..
hope i can tink of one before going to sleep..
one which may make a big difference in both our lifes..
well i dunno..
everyday im asking myself.. is she really happy when she say she is or her friend tells me..
well.. i guess i know the real answer.. but what can i do..
how can i help...
somehow.. i feel that day she has a purpose in some things she do...
i need your care.. and i hope to care for you ya.
'when your world is falling down, i will be the one around, you not alone'

2009-04-10T08:41:00.000-07:00

today is a long day..

meet siying at elias at 3..

when for a movie with elton and edmund at 6.10

watch shinjuku incident.

even though you dun go.. i understand..

theres still nxt time. after that follow elton go bedok fetch his sy.. reach hm at 11.

anyway i realise something.. you used it.. im glad..

i felt stoopid yesterday.. since i called her back.. i shld at least just ask to meet her at the toilet area for a quick talk or glance.. hais...

i know its hard for you to believe in promises but i try to make u believe again..

its the night again.. going to be a sleepless one again.. lonely and gonna feel uneasy again..

well.. i have to try bah.. nites...

2009-04-07T14:51:00.000-07:00

i just cant let go of her..
i just dont know how to respond to what she said yesterday..
i just keep on deceiving myself..
end of 2012 or more, will it still be the same??
all i can do now is just lay low and wait patiently..
the feeling for her is the real feeling i ever felt.. which i couldn't feel it from the rest..
i want to understand you fully.. from head to toe..
maybe elton was right.. i didnt try to make an effort to know you..
if thats true.. pls let me try to understand you..
All i want is to shower you with all my love, care, concern, protection..
though you look strong from the outside but i know you're vulnerable in the inside..
it hurts when u tried to hide your real feelings from your friends..
a chance is needed..
let go off the past..

2009-04-06T03:37:00.000-07:00

Hope she does read my blog.
Anyway i injured my right shoulder and palm. :(
Damn it.. hope can recover fast enough for nafa test..
vvv important to mi.
Hand hurting much.. write till here today
takecare everyone. Byes.

Manchester United 3 Aston Villa 2

2009-04-05T03:41:00.000-07:00

Lately. had been feeling down and frustrated.
I know i blame you, see hwee but i did not meant for what i say. Its just that i dunno what i'm doing, being crazy just to escape from reality. I'm really sorry for what i have said to you.
Recently, also have been sending good night messages to sebrina and she did reply. i feel contented but somehow i still feel uneasy. Perhaps maybe i wanted more.
Envious of spencer too. I just don't get it. why cant he just cherish 'her' love for him. Just hoping that he would be in my situation and see how it feels like. Honestly. though his studies are good, i feel that he is alittle dump in dumping her. No offence ya. If i were him, i return all my love to her. Btw the songs you will be hearing in my blog were once heard in Sebrina's blog.I tried noting all down but couldn't.Those which i couldnt is when i tried forget her and did not read her blog.
Hmm forger her?? Sad to say i couldnt bring myself to do that la. Hahas!! Ya, i know i am being alittle lame stupid and naive in my thinking but i just cant help it.
I think i'll be giving myself until 2012 to wait for her. Maybe even more, who knows right!^^ So don't lose contact with me after this year ya.. OKies!! xp
Anyway i just want you be happy !! :D

Today update:
Manchester United v Aston Villa
10.55pm

GGGGOOOOOOOOO all the way RED DEVILS!!
Wahahahaaaaaaa!!
O and jia yi pls tag after reading!! ^^
~Byes!!~

2009-03-28T05:57:00.000-07:00

today is a long tiring day. woke up at 6.30 and went to school by 8.
i was like so dumb to eat away my sleeping time and be at school 1 hour earlier...
lols.. lesson start at 9.00 lors.. so waited alone at the canteen for 1 hour..
happy thing is that at least i had a glance of her.. hahas...
have chemistry practical lesson from 9-12.30 but ms lim came late..
started at 9.20 and drag till 12.45.. and was like rushing back home to get change before meeting up the rest at bugis for f&n.. f&n was originally frm 2-3 but then everyone gather at around 2.30 plus and walk to the national library.. but i left at 3.30 caused have a haircut appointment.. reach home around 6.30.. was totally outside in the morning and afternoon.. tired now..
currently watching tv ...

2009-03-27T04:07:00.000-07:00

yo!! hahas.. days have been better. Trying hard to buck up in my studies.

today it was a boring day at school. especially when theres self study .

just couldnt take it and fall aslp.. after school initially wanted to go gym as usual but then we went to tm to catch a movie.. the Unborn.. 'scary' siol.. hahas..

after the movie it was about 5.45 le.. went home.. o and i also feel very useless.. yesterday siying told me something which may hurt 'her'. i really hope that i can help her in some way.. 's'.. stay happy ok.. thats all now i could do.. and thnx for tagging me!! :D

2009-03-18T04:27:00.000-07:00

Sorry never post for the long period of time.
Ya. manchester united beat inter milan 2 goals to zero.. with goals from vidic and ronaldo.
thats the happy part but then man u lost to liverpool 4 to 1... HUMILIATION!!!
okay la. its okay to lose bt den what which was unacceptable is that those doggy man utd fans..
im so bloody fcking angry that they kissed the damn liverPOO badge as they wre ask too.. Toatlly unacceptable lor.. Hais.. whatever la.. anyway times have been bad..
my results were like TOOT!! and teacher talk alot to my mum..
Well the champions league quarter final draw will be this fri 20th march..
and Man Utd is playing Fulham this sat..
Yesterday went ehub do homework with jessie, see hwee, elton and brendon after eng extra classes.. and i did saw her walking passed.. today woke up very late as pei someone sleep late yesterday.. well tomorrow maybe going watch movie with ed elton.. thats all for today bah.
Byes!!

theophilus.

2009-03-11T03:59:00.000-07:00

manchester united vs inter milan (2nd leg)
tomorrow morning. must watch ehs.
today was a damn bad day.
anyway nothing much to post too.
have alot of homework to do too.
thats all for now.
byes!

theophilus.

2009-03-02T02:36:00.000-08:00

manchester united win tottenham hotspur 4-1 on penalties!!
oohoo.. goodgood. now man u have their 2nd cup le.. carling cup.. hahas^^
well today got back maths common test.. well i passed. 30/50^^
after school pon cca and went to ehub with jessie, see hwee, elton, edmund and brendon
go eat at superdogs. but me, ed , el and brend did not eat at all.. lols.
after that ed, el and brend went to bowl. me jess and sh just watch them play.
well still wondering when will the chance come for me. yea.. i know many say i should give up but then i do not know why i jus cant let her go. hahas. today did not see her anyway. though i feel better without thinking of her but at times i do still feel uneasy. just want u to be happy:)
days had been pasting fast. really got to wake up my idea le.
well that's all for now. byes.

theophilus.

2009-03-01T03:42:00.000-08:00

MANCHESTER UNITED vs TOTTENHAM HOTSPUR
Carling cup final. Must watch!!

2009-02-27T03:28:00.000-08:00

Today school was just a waste of time.
Just slacking my time away.
Literature.. did nothing much
English.. have test and took back english ct.7/25
Recess.. ate bread i brought. Saw her sitting outside 3/8 clsroom.. knew that something was wrong.. den ltr got chase dwn to canteen.. meimei sy msg mi that she(seb) cried.. i really want to do something but its impossible.. when was about to go up class she and her friends were standing infront of me.. i saw them but did not have the courage to ask how's she.. im just so useless.. hais.
F&N.. hav test.. just did the 1st page and when to sleep le.. was not in the mood.
self study.. mr chong did not come today.. relief teacher.. yeayea^^.. but still quite sians la.. did nothing but stare into blank space.. i feel so upset.. later argue with frienz again..
after school went to elias cc to play badminton with brendon, zammerul, hakim, syakir and fatin.
i hurt my knee again. just want to tired myself out to forget all my problems. :(
i feel really sad for her but all i could do is just stay aside and watch.. im so useless..
just wan to tell you. dun keep your problems, shared it with others .. i know it wont be me but u still have others. cheer up!!:)

Theophilus.

2009-02-25T03:45:00.000-08:00

Today woke up at 4am to watch Manchester United play with Inter Milan.
Well the game was exciting though it ended up a goaless draw. Man U just
Play splendid football. Wahahaa, wad u expect.. they are the English champions.
LOLS…. K la.. anyway school today was fine. Today we start on geography le.. practically
Do nothing. Just watch some documentary video and I fall asleep. After that got back my MT
Test. 5/50.. Lols.. I have been failing all my test so far, just a passed or two. Hais.. get ready
To be the last few in class le. Maybe can even top the class from the back. Did nothing much
For the rest of the lessons. Finally it was PE.. got myself change at lvl3 and I saw her.
Well just have to see but cant do much.. though I know she’s unwell. PE we played soccer.
Won 6-0 which means I kept a clean sheet. Hahahaha..see im as good as van der sar..ROFL
Everyday im still waiting though I know its impossible. Anyway u do look worn out. Try not Overdo yourself kies.. And cheer up!! I be there if needed. Hahs!:) Take cares everyone!^^
Anyway just for man utd fanz... Final score man u 0 inter 0.. 2nd leg is 2wks from nw. Hahs.
Starting 11(yest): Van Der Sar, Rio Ferdinand, Johnny Evans, Patrice Erva, John O'shea,
Park Ji Suung(Wayne Rooney79min), Christiano Ronaldo,
Darren Fletcher, Mickael Carrick, Ryan Giggs, Dimitar Berbatov
Cya everyone!! Byebye!

2009-02-23T05:55:00.000-08:00

yoyo!! today was a bad day. hahas.
sorry ah, have to start off with a negative post.
i tink should write it in a letter form bah.. practice letter writing. LOLS
Dear Blog,
Everything was fine in the morning. i woke up in the morning
feeling so tired and was dragging myself to school. Today walk to school
with brendon. The walk make me energtic and was able to stay alert in
school for at least 2h and that's it. hais. i just cant get into my old habit
of studying. Worst still i fail my chemistry ct 12/25. It was taiko fail the
lor. actually passed de but then i made 2 careless mistakes. so its taiko
fail. my maths test the same too. fail. 11/23. Oso taiko fail de. wonder
how i will fair for my physics and english. well i did bullshit with my maths
ct. Lols.. nbm.. Relax Still haven't national day yet. Start after national
day!!:) Cheer up!! hahas. Okay la that's all for today la. tomorrow will be
a new day, hope it will be a nice one.^^Byes.

Theophilus:)

2009-02-22T03:04:00.001-08:00

Hi everyone! Theophilus is back! Hahahahaha!