7:06 PM Saturday, September 26, 2009
Dear blog,
went for my checkup today..
got a negative report from the doctor..
reason for dry skin.. headache..
and lost of vision awhile is due to my heart failing..
i need immediate operation.. if gets worse..
doc: Good morning.. where's daddy and mummy??
boy: busy(faint smile)
doc: ready for your checkup.. it will be x-ray and ecg check today..
{After the checkup}
doc: omy, what have you been doing Theophilus.. lately.. u got to be honest for me to diagnoise the right thing... ur x-ray and the ecg checkup is not showing good results.. the ecg shows a unstable heartbeat..
boy: er.. i stay up late.. studying for my exams..
doc: how much sleep did you get..?
boy: honestly.. 1-2 hrs a day..
doc: okay.. any other reason that you are not saying out..
boy: nope..
doc: in that case you have to take good care of yourself.. your condition now is really bad.. realise that the pain you having now is very sharp.. and frequent.. you really got to take care of yourself.. the chip in your left chest has penetrate deeper.. an immediate operation is needed actually.. but lets c how u doing in your next appointment. let ur dad and mum know.. drink more water and i prescribe you with the same medicine again. take it when needed.. Its also best that you have someone with you when you are out.. your body is fragile..
boy: okay(weak smile)
doc: go to counter 21 for your medicine and counter 27 for payment. take care bye.
boy: bye
im really scared... i have no one to confide to..
i wanted to tell someone but i couldn't..
i did not want to hide from her.. or to those who care for me...
i dont want you to worry for me..
reason why i did not want sebrina to know is because she will tink that its all her fault..
i dun wan her to tink dat way..
i feel veryfrighten in me...
my fear is getting over me..
what should i do..
my heart is getting tired each day..
i just want to put a strong front..
so that others wont worry for me..
Labels: my body is failing me..